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new live journal... the name of its is xxiwonderwhyxx
thanks!
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[25 Nov 2004|03:09pm] |
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so today was awesome
its was THANKSGIVING DAY AND guess what my grandma is getting treat ments and her vowel of some thing starded to move today so i a m happy shes getting better i think! lol anywas i gotta go so hope everyone has a great night love you all ash
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[24 Nov 2004|01:58am] |
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no one really pays attentione to this neither me ... crying seems to be the one and only pain relief and let me tell y a i thought i could trust him i guess i learn guys who are even good friends of urs can still break ur heart. everyone knoe who i am talking about i realli couldnt find the words to tell him stuff that i really thought neither could i tell him dont leave me he left long before our kiss he was just in a game ... like all u see all the guys that are put in here were my friends intill we took it a further step and heres the end i couldnt be friends with these guys again knowing they took something so special away from me and not talking about anything bad ! like sex but something more special my heart ... toke it and broke it to peices even if i act like tried to forget about what my friends told me and what u promise but let me just post u a comment that i thought was alil ensuring but turn to be all lies!
from him:
ash, i want to take this slow. because i dont want to be pressured by everyone like i was with *frien*. you already broke 2 polices, and i think it was worth it. you're very beautiful and caring. one of the reasons i broke up with *frien* was because she was rude, didnt have manners, and what i did(which i know will not happen with you). so if you can find it in your heart i think we could make it.
you know who
see ALL tHIS SAY IS:
ASH, I WANT U TO PLAY MY GAME SO I CAN PLAY AROUND WITH UR FEELINGS AND I AM GLAD THAT U BROKE 2 SELF POLICES B/C THEN NO ONE WOULD LIKE ME AND DO STUFF WITH ME ... AND THE REASON I BROKE WITH FRIEND IS B/ I CHEATED ON HER AN D U KNOE I WOULD DO THIS TO YOU ... WHICH THAT HOW MY GAME WORKS... BUT LIKE ALWAYZ ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ILL MEET AND FALL FOR AND SAY I AM CONFUSED ABOUT WHO I LIKE ... WHICH REALLY IS BULL .. BUT WHATEVER YOULL BELIVE AND I SAY I AM GROUNDED BUT I AM REALLY JUST TRYING TO GET OUT OF A MISTAKE THAT I MADE WITH YA!!!
you know who
and heres what ill have to say:
well guess what i could care less i actually just of rather never had met you then my heart wouldnt be hurting and i be on my own happy way and not likeing you!!! and thats pretty much what i would say and wish he die or something close anywas now off with AT which a loser and hes think i should of never said anything that i did last night but oh welll... he hurted me bit i learned ... finals GOODBYES ..
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[23 Nov 2004|08:11pm] |
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why am i feeling this way ? why do i act really werid now when ur name is metion ... why is it i put a smile on when u walk by but inside am so upset.. why dp i hate you why do my friends hate you .. all these questions and no answers man why?
well my mom's mom isnt doing well and i fear the worse my come soon but ia m praying for it not to but whatever God choose its for the best ...
to my friends heather : hope ur having fun at northcaroline~~ m.j u better call me i need to talk to u 409-3397!!!! well tiffany hope ur h aving fun!1
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~forget you !~~ i thought maybe i be happy i thought we might be happy well ur the only one happy and i am depress and worrided about whats i am gonna do .. this isnt to anyone certain its just what seems to happ we talk an d then flirt maybe go out an d 3 weeks later were hating each others guts b/c i broke up with u cuz u thought you could have 2 ... whats wrong i ask well you sya nothing but inside youu feel sad and happy thhat u cheated on me well all i say is goodbye!
welkl this weekend been preety good and bad i found out the truth about him! people say what a loser and i a gree farewell why did i have to see him i guess to learn hes not the one!
contuine with this weekend i talk to my brother jed he says *person* an a$$ and to forget him dont ever go ack to him i am like good ! i now contuine my w eekend got bad news on gdma and man it sucks
though mike called me and we talk last night for almost 2 hoursm thats really cool we talk about lots and eh agree time to move on and get ove so thats what ill do ... lol well heather also called me last night laughing about this really hott guys suppoly in north carolina backof lol j/k she b e back this friday man i miss her and others chad never called me grr bad oh well i guess he doesnt ra elli like me! oh well i still think hes hott and a swetie pie lol!
well just in my mommy and daddy are flying in tonight from airport and i am happy i miss them alot! well i gtg talk to ulatter bye
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[19 Nov 2004|09:34pm] |
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from the lil things
okay i did a hard thing this week letting go addison since everyone knoes like i dont knoe ithink most of why was of me! i was grounded and i having issues right now ... i know wouldnt work but hopefully later this year he will still like me and we'll hook up but maybe not .... mike and me are talking now hes really cool guy to hang with i think and .. it was funny today {friday} i saw mike and then he hugged me and walk away i called his cell and then he looks stright acroos the walk way ! i was like hahaha lol then like 5 ,ins later i called him a gain he started to laugh! lol and then he called me back la ter after that class period b/c this all happen during lunch!! me and ashley crawly seem to realte to stuff she helping me on a issue that needs a lil guidance lol also fearri p/o at me for liking addison but oh well ,... tiffany okay ... amanda brok up with her bf no comment! rhi i think is getting a lil fightie stage due to a chick is like messing with her and say crap! jed well he s got a really bad issue and man i felt like crying i mean he was i mean DAMN! is it me or a re our teachers at gj being rude and alil to in our business ??? i think so ... sat night will be nate a nd lacy 2 week together yea!! anywas also i starded to talk to chad and haD to give him my number so we couuld hang out he s really sweet and so cute !! lol anywas my step mom moms is got cancer and its realli bad so i ask to please PRAY for my gma man another one dying i hate it i hate the word sick! and death... well chasity and t.j are having better days now! and i am glad for this week its been a almost great week excpet for some others but i am gonna make a promise to stop swearing its getting realli bad maybe b/c of t he people ive been hanging around with! welll i guess ill go! also ody i am going to the moives around 10:45 due to we want to!! well i love you all way to much so kisses and hugS!~ash~
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